2004-03-17 around 10:20 p.m. It's kinda nice having a little drama going on in our lives.

I want to kill my drawing and I haven't really started yet. I'm not a fan of perspective and shading. It's really annoying to have to do.

This is my 4th trip to the library today to check what's happening over in livejournal. I don't know whether to be amused or pissed at the poor smelly boy.

I will say that his response to my reply to his angry post makes me feel a little better about how things stand between us. But I also still want to tell him that he's just as much to blame as she is. Neither of them was talking, not just her.

Anyway, I don't know how well this not reading his diary is going to go. I'm too damn curious about what's going on in his life and in his head. That stands true of any person, but his diary is the one my counselor told me I should stop reading to truly cut myself off from contact with him.

I don't know if I really want to cut off all contact with him. I'd kinda like to be able to occasionally post a reply in his diary.

Not that I have an easy time of writing replies to his posts. There's so much I want to say, but not all of it is stuff he wants to hear. At times I want to just let myself sound mean when I'm trying to explain stuff to him, but I always actually just tell him the not so negative stuff.

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